Everyone who knows me can identify me as the color yellow: bright, amusing, sunshiny, happy, wonderful to see, smiley and so much more. I have always been that way it is just natural for me. I think the three words that can describe me the most are quiet, crazy, and funny. It is because of those qualities that I am loved and liked so much. But even in those qualities there are others that I never showed to people because of fear of being hated. I have learned how to hide parts of my life really well. Well enough that even if I told some people what I have done they wouldn't believe it. Due to past events, I have been deceived (by Satan and even myself) to begin to take part in a life of lies that has caused me to have low self-esteem, self-hatred, and even suicidal thoughts. I have not only battled seven addictions, but have been in prison and am an “ex-con.” With that said I think it is time to get to the beginning of my journey.